Jimmy Nilsson asked me in an email a few days ago “How’s life?”.  I’m sure it was just a regular, friendly question, but I gave him a “life” answer.  It was not spontaneous but something that has been brooding in me for a while.   It is about things that I have been trying to do for a long time.
Here’s a few splintered thoughts from my email exchange.

• Enlightened, for me, is about happiness that comes from being content; unenlightened is just trying to be happy.
• There are many solutions for every problem, whether I am aware of them or not; and the problem has already chosen the best solution, but I have not found it yet.
• Code from my heart because I should trust myself first.
• Be part of the exploration, not just an observer.
• This moment is more important than trying to figure out how it impacts the future, because I can deal with the future in that future moment.
• Passion is constant whether I succeed or fail.
• Let the project plan me, by bending to suit the situation not and not bending the situation to suit me.
• The code I write knows everything, because every line of code has an impact on someone else or some other piece of code.

Now I’ve decided to actively explore why I write code, or why I wish to continue doing what I am doing.  I am not sure what I will uncover in this exploration, but I know that it will be very personal.  I don’t even know if it will be worth sharing, that’s why I am sharing so early.  It just felt right.

I think it will be really tough, but I take solace from my 9 year old son who told his 6 year old sister “Getting hurt is part of playing”.

PS: I don’t think Jimmy will ever ask me a “How’s life?” question again 🙂